Sontag: “There are spiritual resources beyond effort, which appear only when effort is stilled.”
Porno: passivity; easy [lack of] gratification. Sexual excitement accentuates vitality; an end in itself.
One does not know, and it is an agony, whether to fill the head or empty it.
“The ideal is neutrality, transparence.” Sontag
The object of my life is to avoid suffering.
I rejected the content of my father’s life, but not its form: compulsion and unrest.
The person with uncertain identity readily projects himself into other roles. In watching spectacles of violence, he will become the

(Copyright 2018 James Mansfield Nichols. All rights reserved.)

Written in the 70s, 70s-8a. (Copyright 2018 James Mansfield Nichols. All rights reserved.)