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I admit that’s bad, but not *that* bad. I may breach decorum occasionally (like now), but I try mightily not to breach good taste. I’m sure you can handle the above; being a diffident sort, I wasn’t sure *I* could … Continue reading →

He worked on her [***], balled into a striving that sweated their two bodies [***], past caring where she was, if she had [***] [***]. She was beginning to signal [***] in her eyes, her [***] was tensing. But all … Continue reading →

Góngora – Mallarmé – Joyce Hopkins and the Arabs under threat, constant, of the blade sweetened whetted-sweet blade who self-denied the host second-chanced fall the same weak one, none such weaker language tongue on verge (of) tongue simply rung toward … Continue reading →

FORMALISM…. finger any one food and say, ‘That’s what does it.’” What does is it his mind, the life-shaper. The main struggle in my life is for form — its own form. Definition; delimitation of boundaries. How necessary is solitude, … Continue reading →

mistery … (Eliot) “In the figure of the monster from outer space, the freakish, the ugly and the predatory all converge — and provide a fantasy target for righteous bellicosity to discharge itself, and for the aesthetic enjoyment of suffering … Continue reading →

MANED EXETER (Sontag, 219) Maned Exeter, beleaguered metalunan victor or the victim. The success of such spectacles indicates that most people identify with the victor; they are immortal. I identify with the victim. Screen violence is horrible because I am … Continue reading →

Sontag: “There are spiritual resources beyond effort, which appear only when effort is stilled.” Porno: passivity; easy [lack of] gratification. Sexual excitement accentuates vitality; an end in itself. One does not know, and it is an agony, whether to fill … Continue reading →

Sontag: “When suffering and pleasure are experienced vicariously, people can afford to be intense.” [Porno] Excessive susceptibility to the visual; is this the most “intellectual” of the senses? Ortega: “La dirección en que el ver va diferenciándose del palpar consiste … Continue reading →

… We’ll have sex if you love me. Or: We’ve had sex; how can you not love me? Or: We love each other; let’s marry so we can close the deal in bed. Or: My self-respect is so down; I … Continue reading →

Abstraction: flight from interpretation: return the sensual to art (music as well). The person who violently and persistently jars his senses with drugs, sex, food, is the opposite of voluptuous; he is frigid. The capacity for sensuality is in inverse … Continue reading →